Good stuff, good stuff. Fish called me from the bus station from K-town comin home for the weekend, yay! So we're goin to the AGO tomorrow and probably shoppin at the Eaton Centre too.

I can't believe I came home with nuthin from the mall. Tried on a few belts but didn't find nuthin.

Geez, I'm still full from dinner at BP :P I probably made it worse from all the water I drank. The Leafs won tho! :)

We're gonna take Sarah clubbin tomorrow night, haha! Yeaaah, we're goin to an all-ages for her first experience ;) Thank god 108 has a licensed VIP area. Should be interesting...get ready to get hit on by 17 yr olds. "Let's play Who can Pick up the most Minors!" LOL

NOW there's a lot to do this weekend. There's Winterfest (and Winterlicious, haha...we're gonna go out for that Mexican soon), the AGO's free, I'm thinkin about goin to Mitchell's show, and still all the movies I wanna see...You Got Served, The Butterfly Effect (Ashton Kutcher in a serious role, heh), and Win a Date.

I said screw it to the whole independent study thing. My prof is takin his sweet time gettin back to me so whatever. Today's the last day to enrol in a course with permission...ah well! I don't really care about school right now :P

I feel better. I don't think I'm mad about anythin anymore, haha. Me and L are talkin so it's straight. Bein the freakin indecisive Libra she is, L tells me to leave my cell on last night so if she calls me before noon today we're goin downtown to shop. I leave it on...I get woken up by a call at like 10 somethin in the morning. It's not even her but this stupid number that keeps leavin msgs that aren't even for me. Then I couldn't go back to sleep. And we're not goin downtown after all. I made L feel bad for that, haha. Gonna hit the mall now!

As boring as Canadian Theatre class can be sometimes, the stuff we talk about's pretty deep. Like the drama and performance theories make me really think. When I'm bored during presentations (sorry, I have a bad attention span!), I jot random stuff. I surprise myself sometimes LOL Oooh insightful. Here's some stream-of-consciousness I got from today's class:

More than solving the problem, it's the exploration...it's about yourself...choice and options

Review things...things usually get clearer a second time around...try a different perspective...if you can't accept it, at least give it a thought...when things get familiar, you are more open to it...reconsider, not for the other person's sake but for you

Do somethin not for credit or acknowledgement...actually, try doin it and keep from mentionin it from anyone

Trust and respect...give it and have expectations to receive it

You are here to make others happy and others are here to make you happy...but don't demand it

There's an artist in everyone...you are the creation and your life is the celebration...life communicates self, expresses who you are...define it

Get out of the box, the American/western/euro reality

Find, recognize, appreciate beauty in everything

Well that was fun shovelin the driveway. Snow snow snow! At least it's not that cold tho...not that it matters cuz we're supposed to stay off the roads if we can help it so that means I can't really go nowhere. Except sledding! :D In the dark!

I was debatin whether I should check my grades from 1st semster online cuz if it was bad, it'd ruin my day and I'd be completely fine with not knowin til I really needed to :P But turns out I got a C in SF film and a B in narratology....B!! Yahaaaa! Musta kicked ass on that final essay I was doin last min, haha. And I got a D on the 1st SF film essay so a final C's pretty sweet. I'm tellin ya, I was kinda scared.

Wow, there's not much to do if you gotta stay in. Guess I'll watch those FOUR hrs of classic Hollywood cinema for this week :P Or go play with the new printer/scanner thing my sis just came home with :) Man, if I had this thing when I was underage...fake IDs fo sho, haha. Finally a scanner. Booyaka, son!

Alright, I'm over it now. You know, that icky bad feelin when stuff's gone bad and you sweat it cuz it's in the back of your mind. Finally got that re-write crap done too. Waitin shit thru really sucks ass sometimes but hey, that's time for ya. Makes it OK again...that and somebody's funny ass blog that I read. That's 1 thing that I appreciate about myself, I seem to get over things quick...it's just the first bit where I'm angry or feelin bad that's tough. Fire sign here!

Well I'm still havin my drink anyway! Don't wanna waste it, hehe.

Oh it got even better last night. I talked to Em on Messenger later and she's like, k call me later if you want. I said OK but I'd hafta do it before midnight cuz technically it'd be Mon and my cell contract's up by then. I go to call her with my long distance mins (the free ones from the Sprint card that only goes on the phone you register) and somethin's up with my phone, the call doesn't go thru. I try callin a buncha other ppl's #s and it's not workin. So I guess the Rogers ppl cut my cell off earlier than I thought. Bastards. I had like half an hr normal talk time and 15 long distance mins left all wasted. And it's not like I could tell her not to expect me to be callin.

Rant rant rant, meow meow meow.

I'm gonna go do my nails.

OK I can't do it. My original stuff was gold and I can't remember what I had, grrrr. I'll do it tomorrow. Well I'm havin a bad day. Everybody's in a sour ass mood today, fuck. Me and L just had a spat. Holy hell I hate when she gets like this. But I'm thinkin it'll be fine by tomorrow or whatever.

*SIGH* Agh, I just needed to bitch.

Wow I haven't been that mad in a long time. I spent about an hr or so typin up my piece to post for my online course, was just about to finish it. I even right-click Copied it cuz it was pretty long and I was tryin to be safe so if I accidentally closed the window or somethin, I could just paste it again. NO! I go downstairs to eat dinner....someone goes and turns the motherfuckin computer OFF. My stuff is gone. I knew some shit like this was gonna happen but not thinkin the whole damn thing was gonna be shut off, killin everythin I wrote.

See if I had blogged about it at that point it pretty much woulda been: HOLY FUCKIN SHIT MUTHERFUCKIN GODDAMN FUCKIN HELL!!!!!! WTF WTF WTF!!!!!

Or somethin like that. But I was so pissed I didn't even know what to do with myself, besides go murder somebody. So I went and got some air (some brisk cold cold air), punched a big fat stuffed frog (it was just there...I said I was sorry to it afterwards), and had a smoke. OK I caved but yo I only had a puff, that's it. God, when you don't smoke anymore, it really is gross. Good thing for me so I don't get back into it again. Anyway, as I was takin deep breaths tryin to calm myself, I was tryin to make light of the situation. I was like, OK it's not that big a deal, you're alive, be happy you're alive, there's more important things out there, haha. Yeah...I'm OK now. Let's go write that crap all over again.

More PS2 (I think I'm gettin desensitized to the whole bloody beatings thing, eeps), the Leafs kicked ass :) Too bad the movie theatres up here don't play late night shows. Guess we'll watch Win a Date with Tad Hamilton on Tues. Apparently Tuesday is THE day of the week. Lemme reiterate: Cheap movie night, KFC Toonie Tues, Taco Bell Toonie Tues haha, Turkey Tues LOL, when new CDs come out, cheap long distance Tues, Pasta Night at BP...and the newest one I found, $2 lattes at Second Cup, ohhhh yeaaaaah.

I'm thinkin of paintin my room. Some shade of blue of course. L said it's the right colour for a calming effect. I just don't want my room lookin like a insane asylum with the bare white walls :P Yup, that's right, I'm takin down all the pix...and buyin new ones :) Those big huge movie-sized posters so I'll only get like 5 or 6.

Haha, new shoppin list:

Belt
Posters
Paint
Bigger hat :P
Triple 5 Soul top
Hair dye (time to get those roots)
Somethin at AE before my cash card expires on the 31st

Oh I had to talk about this freakyass dream I had a week ago. I was livin in a house with this couple that were my parents but weren't really my parents cuz they were kinda trailer-hick-old country ppl. I don't remember much of it anymore but they were fightin about somethin and my 'dad' was kind of a jerk, like this lazyass, domineerin, smokin, beer-drinkin guy. But then outta nowhere I'm out in the yard and this fuckin big BIRD comes and starts to attack me (you should all know I'm scared of birds so this is pretty damn freaky to me). My dad tho, grabs it by the feet and tries to pull it away from me. The bird's really strong and friggin determined cuz it keeps comin at me. My dad keeps catchin it and tuggin it away just as it lunges at my face. Can you say traumatized? So by that whole thing, I figure that my dad is not a bad guy at all :P

Ugh, L's makin me to to school with her tomorrow cuz apparently photocopyin is a 2 person job. Guess we should check out the other Goodlife while we're out. I WILL join a gym, frig it! I'd go to the 1 at school if it wasn't such a damn trek. Maybe I'll just go to school more days that I don't have class. The price is right...$10 :P