I'm makin myself stay home and do my essay all weekend but I know that's all in good intention and nuthin else. I really want a stiff drink right now but it's kinda early for it. And plus that lil thing about me sayin that I would never :P

Hmm...what would you make of somethin like this:

Come on
my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
If I'd only waited
I'd not be stuck here in this hole
Come here
my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
And I swear, I waited and waited
I've got to get out of this hole

But time is on your side
it's on your side now
Not pushing you down
and all around
It's no cause for concern

Come on
my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath

Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And I'm on my way back down again
Stood on the edge, tied to the noose
Sick to the stomach

You can say what you mean
But it won't change a thing
I'm sick of the secrets
Stood on the edge, tied to the noose
And you came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose

Is it beautiful or kinda scary?

Been an interestin couple of days...interestin as in messed up. Yesterday we made it a Blockbuster night and rented Simone, pretty good movie except for that retarded ending. We were in separate cars with me and L in one and G drivin the other so when we were goin in, G was ahead of us at the door. Some woman was walkin behind her and we were comin from the right and yellin at G, bein stupid like singin her name Giiiiiiinaaaaaaa. So G's ignorin us or she's totally deaf cuz she doesn't look up or yell back or acknowledge us whatsoever so we're sayin stuff like, she's fuckin deaf or just a pure idiot. The woman is thinkin we're talkin to her, she's lookin at us and when we get to the door at the same time she's like, "I thought you were talkin to me, cuz my name's Deena" and we're like, oh no no, our friend. And she's like, "Yeah I figured cuz I was like, I don't know these ppl...and they're yellin at me and callin me names!" LOL We're like oh shit, naw man, not you! :P That was DRY. G, man, you fuckin nerd if you'd just act like you knew we were talkin to you LOL All her fault. OMG that new Blockbuster commercial with the bunny and the hamster and the poor mouse...LOL I LOVE it! Too funny! Aw the mouse tho, gettin abused LOL
Now let's rant about my damn day today. So I was out yesterday so I didn't get a chance to check my email...the ONE time I didn't, the one time I shoulda! I'm thinkin I'll just go to tutorial cuz we're gettin back our essays but skip lecture. OK I'm kinda late but like it matters, there's a sign on the door sayin tutorial's cancelled. Holy fuck! I came all the way to school for nuthin. I'm like goddammit, I check my email in the library and there WAS one he sent yesterday. ARGH!!! I KNEW I shoulda skipped the whole day. That's what I get. I call G and tell her to pick me up NOW LOL...I'm done for the day, we're goin to Square One! Oh and the cherry on top was that I also found out that the fuckers at school changed around my program requirements to somethin way easier and I been bustin my ass to get the right courses to do them this yr and last...for shit! Double ARGH!!! And I apparently can't make an advisin appointment til April. I'm not spewin anymore on this, I'm just gonna say...fuckin. hell.

I'm finished my hw...for this week anyway. I'm kinda scared for this weekend when I should be doin my bigass essay. But I'm sure I can fix that by goin out :) It's really really nice not to go to class on Wed...none of that 2:30-10 biz. And I'm probably doin somethin tomorrow heehee.
I'm still pissy about the Avril show bein sold out. Who is takin up my seat??? I'll take you all down. I'm even thinkin about goin to the Buffalo show and takin our trip to Niagara so we can cross over. I wanna goooooo! Won't somebody with an extra ticket take me please? I'm a much better concert date than anybody! I swear if this same shit happens when Justin's show rolls around, I will seriously rage...look out.

Well Blogger was bein difficult but I can post my ramblings now. It's about 2 and why am I up, you ask? LOL No, the better question would be why am I not at school :) Apparently they're doin a war against Iraq protest at school it's like strike time again and the entrances are bein blocked and hardly anyone's gettin thru, so in school protocol that means there will be class held but you don't hafta go and you won't be penalized if you don't...obviously when this opportunity presents itself, I sure as hell will stay home :) G calls me and wakes me up to tell me about the crap she went thru this morning so the protest was goin on for sure. I actually was decidin whether to still go or not, what a student I am. I even made lunch the night before like a good lil strugglin college kid so I wouldn't be late LOL We had our midterm for art class last week and a big essay is due for film class next week so they might talk about important stuff but then again, I wasn't lookin forward to takin the bus then waitin for half an hr extra, so I would be late anyway. Plus it snowed a bunch so it's kinda crappy outside. Checked the school website but it didn't say nuthin but as students there, we all know the strike/protest procedure LOL It's kinda sad. SO I said screw it and I'm stayin in for today, tho I gotta get the stuff they cover in class by next week...wow, I have a Wed off! Too bad I can't go out and play...I got no excuse not to do work since I don't have class to eat up my day. Guess I should call Tony to take notes for me tonight...he's gotta go cuz he lives on campus LOL

Nuthin much to say today...I HATE the bus...and a good chunk of their drivers! Dicks. Hmm it's midnight and I feel like a salad...what DOES a salad feel like?? :)

I'm glad I didn't do my hw supposedly due today cuz apparently I have til Wed :) Good for me! But then again, I realized I have a shitload of other assignments comin up that'll probably almost kill me. That's OK, day by day.
I forgot to mention about Tony from last week LOL Long story short, he asked again of course (that guy talks some mad nonsense sometimes!) and so I straight up told him to stop askin (he said to tell him if I wanted!) so that was that. I think I kinda hurt his feelings tho...who wouldn't feel down if someone dropped that on you? I told him not say that kinda shit! :P Oh well, he's pretty much still talkin to me so...and he's stayin in that class. Hahaha! I told him he would...right again. Too bad I really don't like that class.

Wooo, Sat was good times! Went out to dinner and got to see Angie who I haven't seen in forever and Nat too, who I haven't seen in forever and a yr :) And Vick too LOL We saw a clone of Joey from Nsync waitin for a table and we all turned and looked so of course he noticed LOL Looked exactly like him, so spooky. We FINALLY finally hit Joe. I'm really feelin that place, I feel like I should go write them up a wicked review :P Too bad about their cheapie drinks tho...$4.50, what happened to $1.50?? If it wasn't for that, I SO woulda gotten hammered last night, but too bad I couldn't afford it no more LOL I even bought some Gravol on Thurs so I could test out if I'd still get sick if I drank and took some after...then all my probs would be over! LOL But once again, fate has stopped me from gettin loaded and I only had 1 screwdriver. Hey I just realized I'm on my 6th month, wow :) Well at least I got to check out Joe after all this time. The line just looks really bad, we were in in like 15-20 mins. See? A lil patience and optimism, ppl. "Croc Rock, Sugar, Fluid, no let's go to Havana, meow meow meow meow" Geez. Once again, I was the right one ;) Gotta love downtown, I think just about everybody comin out or goin in anywhere on the weekend is drunk LOL "You fuckin snow-kickers!" LOL
Oh I almost forgot about the Beetle boys LOL We had to stop at a gas station cuz the car needed windshield fluid and G's car's just gotta be different and everybody was tryin to pop the hood but havin trouble cuz it's some latch thing. We parked next to a black Bug and a buncha guys came out. A group of all guys, dressed up to go clubbin, come steppin out of a Beetle, it was just too funny. Just seein these manly men with their slick gear ready to get down, in a Beetle...like it was a clown car LOL We knew they were gonna come say somethin to us, or at least look over when they came back to the car and one of them tries to be funny and says, "You know you're puttin it in the wrong place" as Nat was fillin up the washer fluid. (I'm still sittin in the car, the 3 of them are workin it...it was kinda pathetic tho, how many ppl does it take to pour washer fluid?? LOL Some girl even came up and asked if we needed help cuz it looked like our car musta broke down or somethin LOL No no it's cool, thanks...we're just tryin to figure out how to pop the hood! :P) So G and them are like, um no it's the right place, thanks. Don't try to psych us out cuz we're girls, buddy LOL
So we're clubbin, havin fun, dancin it up, I'm diggin the music, the crowd's pretty good (except for the requisite drunkass skanks who don't seem to notice they're fallin on you or hittin your back/ass/arm, and those stupid girls who insist on bringin their big purses into clubs and make you wanna grab it and fling it across the room...good luck in findin it, bitch hahaha!) May I also add that some girls were grindin with eachother or whatever the hell they were doin and one of them bent over backwards or somethin? and totally fondled me LOL I was like wtf? I just felt a hand kinda grab me from behind and she half hit my boob and half clung at my side and I'm just like, what is she DOIN? Let go of my shirt, you fool! LOL I always seem to get these half drunk chicks gettin at me, thinkin I was their bf. This one time, somebody grabbed my hand from outta nowhere behind me and pulled and I'm just wtf? and jerked my hand back and she kept grabbin at it cuz she didn't turn around and look. Like, woman, wrong person! Stop touchin me, you tard LOL
Anyhoo, back to Joe...so some guy was behind me for a while apparently and I turned around and he said somethin about tryin to get me to dance with him but I wasn't payin attention. I'm like, buddy how bout when I'm actually facin you? Derrr. He didn't touch me at all or say anythin so how am I supposed to know you're even there? LOL What a dork, but at least he wasn't the grabby gropey grind-with-me type thank god. And he was cute too :) And super freakin tall! This was just as I was sayin to myself, wow that's weird, no one's actually tryin to get with me this time, I don't hafta deal with the nasties :P I know I totally left L, G, and Nat but they know how it goes LOL But they came to get me later cuz Nat had to work that morning so we had to jet. Didn't get his digits or gave him mine...stupid! LOL Didn't occur to me, but then again I didn't wanna go hunt down a pen :P Man, I was so close to mackin him but I couldn't cuz I had on some Mac Lip Glass which looks good but is the gooiest, stickiest shit ever and I was not gonna get that stuff on him LOL He said he doesn't come there a lot but I told him I'd see him around :P So if anybody knows an Oliver, holla at me LOL