I should stop havin drinks with dinner...esp after eatin too much :P I take lil naps on couches and the floor and such when I do.

Me and L went to BP after pickin up Al on the way home from work. Our server was a nice guy ("Radio Man"...or Radioactive Man...and Phallic Boy, hahaha). And we did get to see the pepper mill ;)

So I'm not sure why but our bill came out to 50% cuz it said we got an employee discount. L was hesistant about payin what the total was cuz she pussies out like that. It's not like we said we were employees and lied or somethin. I just know that you don't question it, just be grateful! "Just pay it and GET IN THE CAR!!" LOL I guess the server guy was doin it on the dl and was just bein nice or somethin. Frickin sweet since I had a big thing of pasta, alcohol, and shared a piece of Rolo cake...for about $11 :)

Then we went to G's before she even got home from work, haha. L wanted to print out her resume cuz her comp crapped out and I don't have my printer/scanner anymore cuz my sister's bf has it. So me and Al helped L pretty up her resume while she did jack..."You're in HR, why aren't YOU doin this shit??" Haha. And we burned some more CDs.

Ohhhh G's party on Sat is gonna be sick.

Who's ready for a big, long post? You are!

I actually got to class today somewhat on time...which is surprising cuz I left VERY late and yet still got there in about an hr...by the bus! Wow, TTC is steppin up.

So today's class kinda blew my mind. We were supposed to have done the readings for this week but I didn't realize this and thought the readings listed are for the week after so I didn't do them, let alone even have them :P But the discussion was about Benjamin's essay about mechanical reproduction and aura (and I realize nobody except those who have taken film class would have any idea what I'm talkin about but anyway) and I've read it before in 1st or 2nd yr so I remember it. The prof even used the word evanescent. As in one of my favourite bands...like who ever gets to use the word evanescence/evanescent? Fuckin sweet! Haha. I like the prof, he's pretty decent. He's the guy who did the intros to the filmmakers whenever we had The Independents classes last semester.

OK off topic. The discussion got me thinkin...challenged me to new thoughts and develop on questions. Good class today! Goin to school, you're supposed to learn and absorb knowledge, be enlightened and such but the primary goal is to come out with a degree that you can get a job with when you finish. Really, that's all employers care about, is that certificate that you say you have. Like in this society, it's not even a question of havin a post-secondary education, if you don't have a degree, forget it. So pretty much, that's the only reason why I'm in school. Cuz I know I can't get anywhere if I don't go to university. It's all pretty pointless to me but that's the way things are. Then again, I don't really know what I'd do with myself if I wasn't in school. It's like the only option when you graduate from hs. Damn, I'm so scared when I get out of school. I have no idea what I'm gonna do. This sounds familiar...I know I've ranted about this before.

A 4 hr class. Yeah. And this isn't the first one I've had. Even with stimulating subjects, I always find myself drifting off with the most random things. Mild A.D.D. I tell ya. Like today, I was starin at the back of this girl's head cuz she sits in my line of vision when the prof's talkin and I was just thinkin of how amazing her hair was, haha. *Thought bubble* I bet it's naturally like that...and it probably takes her like no time to do it in the morning. Damn her. And...*Wow, this pen writes REALLY good!* LOL What is wrong with me.

And while I'm on the topic of discussion in class...yikes, ppl just need to vocalize their thoughts, I think just to be heard. You know the type of ppl I'm talkin about. Someone, not even really relating to whatever the last person said but pretendin to use it as a springboard for their comments, goes on about this and this when it's clearly an attempt for the participation grade or showin how much else they know in terms of previous or outside knowledge. Holy, it's one thing to contribute but some ppl say enough to take up points for the entire class.

I have more to go on about :) Next week, the questions for the readings are due so we hafta do them. The syllabus said that the readings are also on reserve at the library, on his office door, and in the graduate reading room...yeah apparently not!

I went to the library first to get a book for G since she's solicitin MY school's material for her work, haha. I tried usin the self-serve station but the friggin barcode sticker was put on willy-nilly and didn't line up to the laser so it couldn't take it so I had to go in the long line-up. Then I went to the bookstore to get the book I needed for class. It wasn't there/wasn't in yet, whatever. The bookstore and the library aren't exactly next to eachother, it's a good walk between them. I go back to the library but the book wasn't in the stacks. I go downstairs and asked for it in reserves...apparently it's not in there either. Readings usually are, just as an option to poor, strugglin students who can't afford to buy the expensive texts and they can photocopy what they need. The only thing is you hafta share with the rest of the class so it can be inconvenient. If they're even there! I crossed the campus to the fine arts building to check his office door. If the readings were there, I'd hafta go back to the library and fill up my photocopyin card and make copies then bring the originals back to the door...but, nothing. There was some class or somethin in the reading room....agh! Back and forth all over the place! I was sweatin in my puffy jacket :P So I have no idea where the fuck I'm gonna get them except for buyin the damn book at Chapters or somethin.

THE END

Holy crap, Al and Mike broke up! And they were lookin like they were gonna get married. It's crazy. Al just told me today...after it bein official and all...after a month. After bein together for 6 YEARS. Awww. I liked Mike. But apparently their goals were too different and all these other issues so it had to be done. So she was feelin a bit depressed now that it's sinkin in. I told her a night with the girls might help so she came over and watched Sex & the City with me and P.

We got thru one season tonight...oh man, every time we see a pepper mill....hahaha. We hit the store for food before goin back to my house. P makes me laugh so much.

*sees disposable cameras on display*
*says in a outraged voice* "$6.99?!?...yeah OK I'll take it."
*takes one like she needs it despite bein appalled about the price* LOL

And now I hafta go to bed soon cuz I have class tomorrow. No fun, no fun!

Soooooo...Q's, haha. P was tryin to allow confrontations for herself so we went to Q's again but Ian wasn't there. She's tryin to get used to the different situation, cuz it was 'our place' and she doesn't want anythin to take that away from us, haha. As in, no longer hang out there due to the awkwardness that might occur if she sees him there...like she doesn't want it to change where we go and who we chill with there.

We smoked in the car, had some good talks and went in. Sidebar, I think there is def angry angry tension between P and the chick who usually works there (plus that girl's friend), haha. I don't even know her name even tho we're around her a lot.

"That fuckin bitch."
"P, what did I say about thoughts out loud?"
"Oh yeah. Skanks."

But let's not get more into it than that. No one was there so boo. And by no one, I mean no Adam, Shane, or Ian :P We played a few games, some with Al. Then played cards with him. There was some drama with the Q's chick and her bf and some 'undesirables' I guess cuz they were arguin and havin serious serious talkin. Anyway, the boys were bound to show up sooner or later and make things more exciting so we went to get somethin to eat. Mike had shown up tho...he and Al were upset we were leavin so they made us promise to come back, haha. So we came back and yup, Adam and Shane were there. They work together and they're roommates, it's so cute :) We played a bit more, said bye to the boys, and jetted.

I think me and P are gonna have a Sex & the City marathon today cuz my sister has all the seasons on DVD. My god, I hafta wash my hair. It smells like smoke and it wasn't me! Yeah, the law is no smokin indoors but it doesn't stop at this bar...you can smoke and drink on the job if you wanted!

Us girls went to bubble tea cuz G was feelin like doin somethin "but not clubbin" so we decided to give in and appease her by choosin somethin she likes, haha. You cannot have bubble tea without the ball jokes. It NEVER gets tired. We gave props to G tonight for admittin she wants to get it on when she watches ppl doin it on tv sometimes, hahaha. She has sexual feelings!

So really, I was gettin kinda tired of hearin P's Ian issues cuz after a while, the things I hear just start to blend together and I don't care so much anymore :P I'm sorry, I'd like to consider myself a good listener...I listen to EVERYBODY'S problems...and I don't complain cuz I do wanna let ppl vent and if I can help in some way, I'd be glad to but it gets to a point when all of it becomes too much and it gets repetitive and thus annoying. Don't listen to my advice, that's fine, you do what you want...but bitch and rant constantly about the same things anyway and you make me wanna blow my brains out...or kick your ass :P Either make a damn decision for yourself and figure out what you want or stop overanalyzin every aspect of your life and thinkin too much about the things that don't really matter. Sometimes I can't believe how much time and energy ppl spend on just dwelling on the same shit. There. That was my vent.

Anyway, that came from somethin, I wasn't just doin a rant outta nowhere. So the whole P and Ian issue...I dunno. L dropped us off at my house so we could go to Q's again. The gist of the night was parkin in the lot, goin in only to see Ian at the door, goin to the washroom, goin back out to the car and findin a gas station to get a cigar for P, havin to find an OPEN gas station to settle on Colts, drivin back to the parkin lot and smokin lil cigars, goin back to Q's, havin all the coin tables taken up, seein Shane, then jettin. I don't know what that was about. Ian had no idea what was goin on either. He came up to me when P stepped out for a sec and was like, is she OK? What's goin on with her?

I just don't want things to be awkward. On another note, I'm not sure if Shane does have a gf for sure like I thought, haha. He just hangs out with girls a lot. And is friendly with all of them :P Me and P got kisses :) I think hangin with Shane makes my day sometimes. I'm such a loser, haha.