Sometimes I don't even know what day it is. Ummmm...watched Supersize Me (you will feel like a fatty fat fat after seein this)...last night was ridiculous in the not so good way but I won't get into that cuz no one really cares...went to Main St with Meen and Fish this afternoon (Fish commented that it's like a Stars Hollow from Gilmore Girls haha, and it is!), checked out the lil funky stores (I have bday present ideas now, exxxcellent)...got off the phone with L, Al, and G about what's goin on tonight....called Shy--happy bday!

L thought she could get her brother to get us into This Is London tonight cuz he knows the bouncer but that's out, haha....which is good cuz I really didn't feel like gettin dressed up :P So I think we're gonna try out the new bar Sam & Pete's where Big Star used to be...then hit D&B's. Haha...Sam and Pete and Dave and Buster...what's with all these guys? Anyway, Al's gonna roll by and link up with us sometime during the night to get her goodies. My goodies. Not MY goodies, hahaha! Best use of a song lyric ever.

Well things just don't go the way I think they will huh? I did finish that assignment...I think it's pretty good but what I think doesn't always mesh with whoever's markin my work thinks. What's there to mark outta 25% I couldn't tell ya. Then I went to class and it was only an hr in but they already started the film. So it's all dark and not even half the ppl are there so I hafta sit there watchin it for a good 45 mins before I get up and hand my paper to the prof and jet :P OMG the bus ride there took like 2 hrs, in drizzlin rain of course. Then I got back on it not even an hr later and took it home. Honestly, it sucks the life out of you. I had my music and my newspaper to read and still, I could feel my soul bein drained, geez. But at least I didn't fall asleep in class or on the bus.

I think I made myself kinda sick tho. Cuz I was standin out in the rain and it was cold and I had bummed a cig off somebody. So the combination of those probably didn't make for a healthy mix. Mama doesn't need a cold right now! Or ever!

Of course you guessed it...I'm doin my essay proposal right now. I did the biblio last night and now I'm stuck. Does this qualify as writer's block? :P

I think the only way to fix that is to procrastinate some more and blog! That'll get this damn brain goin. You know what I realized about myself? I cannot friggin finish what I start. I'd get on somethin and have this OCD-like urge to move onto the next thing when I haven't even done the 1st thing yet. Sporadic much? I guess cuz I wanna do it all. Or I bore easily. Or I have ADD.

Well at least this paper is goin good. I'm more than half done (tho in random fragmented unfinished paragraphs! :P) and I still have about 40 mins til I'd normally leave for class...and I'd actually get there in time for the start! Outrageous!

My grandma's outta the hospital today; we went to pick her up this morning. I'm gonna come home from class and take a nap. No way am I gonna stay for the movie cuz I will 100% fall asleep.

I hit the library today...even tho I really really didn't want to, esp since it was rainy out. Did a lil research, skimmed a few books, dropped off a book for G. And now I'm not even touchin it! Haha. I have til nighttime tomorrow. Figure I can saunter in and drop it off...then leave cuz I already saw the film they're screening ;) OK, OK, in order to justify goin out this weekend, I will do my assignment. A lil work and a LOT of play, haha.

I was just thinkin what should I do tonight...rent a movie, call up 1 of the girls and go out, whatever...then I was like, I should be reading, what am I doin?? I have my essay proposal and bibliography worth 25% due on Thurs! Worst work ethic ever :P Meh, we'll see if I actually get around to it! It shouldn't take that long, I figure if I spend 1 day at the library, then I can get it done...so I'll probably go on Wed, haha. P just emailed me and says she wants to see a movie tomorrow...or tonight, dependin on how much work we get done :P

But I'll be good and at least read today. But really, sometimes I think what's the point? Yes, I took a trip to the hospital again today and it makes me think about these kinda things. It affects me, tho I might not show it with a sad face or talkin about it a lot or by what I write. Talk about wasting your time...doin work that you don't wanna do, I mean. Life can be over before you know it and what have you done? Shit that you could care less about. I personally might not have lived every day to the fullest and took risks and danced like no one's lookin and all that but at least if I did things my way, my days wouldn't have sucked. At least that much is true. You can be still experiencing stuff and just able to BE...maybe not doin all that you could but at least not hating what you're doin. I know maybe I should...stretch every minute, say everythin I want to, just do and not think (Nike!). There are just things that stop you from it. Cuz if everyone did that, my god...chaos! Anarchy! Haha.

If only I could talk so much about...Canadian cinema :P

I think I'm gettin old. There, I said it. I know everybody's been sayin THEY'RE gettin old but now I'm sayin it. It's the whole almost 25, which is halfway to 50, or 5 from 30 which is 'middle age' or whatever crap. I'm not OLD old yet but damn, these partyin days are gettin tiring. Just a night of goin out drags me down the next day, haha. I'm like, I'm almost 24...that's still way young...but then I figured we've been doin this for about 6 yrs straight since we were 18. So that'd explain it :P

Well L's bday yesterday was fun. The girl had like 20 ppl at Philthy McNasty's, which is actually a cool place for dinner, who woulda thought? The place has a magician during the night so this guy comes up to the table and L has this very wary and suspicious look on her face cuz she thought he was some stripper we hired LOL "Hi, my name's Bobby..." "OK what's goin on!?" Hahahaha!

Then about 15 of us went clubbin at Inside later. That place is insane, I don't think any of us are ever gonna go back there. The problem with havin a big group of ppl is that someone WILL get lost and/or disappear and it's so much harder dealin with everyone to get in. I can't even explain it, it was total chaos. With who goin in who's car, findin other ppl in line, goin home with who, forgettin keys and purses in other cars, findin cars. It was good times still tho. It was me, L, G, Fish, Lionel (I actually YELLED when they walked in, haha...I get overexcited when it's ppl I haven't seen in a while), Al, Mike, P, Shy, Pris, Vick, Paul, Shannon, Lana, Fiona, Eric, and some other peeps from school or whatever.

Guess who I fuckin saw at Inside? This guy who hit on me last New Yr's eve at Piccadilly Circus! Hahahaha! That was just so weird, cuz who woulda thought I'd run into him almost a yr later. I told L when I saw him outside and G saw him when we were inside (even SHE recognized him still) . I was gonna go up to him and see if he remembered me but we were all goin upstairs so I didn't get to.

I'm sure there's a story or 2 I'm leavin out but my brain isn't recalling them right now :P